It's going to take me ages to get through this grief, even though I know he wouldn't want me to grieve. I know he is in a better place, free of pain, feeling healthy and likely having the most wonderful time with loved ones we have lost before him. But I have so many details to wrestle with now that he is no longer in my life. My priorities are all misaligned right now. And they are SO not meshing with those of my Mother-in-law's. I'm trying to be patient with her as JImmy had asked me to be. WOW.
Regardless, I am sharing the farewell Poem that I wrote the morning of his funeral. I did borrow part of a verse from W.H. Aulden because his poem was the first thing that came to mind when my Love had passed away. I think W.H. Aulden would approve.
We gather today, for our Jimmy has passed
His pain seemed so endless but then again fast
I'm stunned that I stand here to speak of his life
A new-found widow, the departed's wife
He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I'll never again know a love so strong.
He humbly wandered through day to day
Not even aware of the ripples he'd made
The hearts that he touched, the lives that he blessed
His family and friends who loved him best
We need to move forward and carry his love
And know that he's watching from above
He would not want us to cry for his passing
Jimmy would much rather hear us laughing
And so it is fitting, the date of this mass
A date of pranks, and fun and laughs
That we honour my love, My Darling JimOur lives are much richer for loving him.